Each painting has a story. Maybe it is linked to Your Story. Here you can find out, whether a topic is relevant for you right now. You can also scroll intuitively and choose a painting that attracts you, to find out if it has actuality in your life – past, present or future. Enjoy the journey!
Do you remember the moments in your life when you were absolutely happy? Sometimes even without a reason. Do you recall how it felt? This year has been one of the most difficult years of my life, but it had some highlights, too. In one of these blissful moments, I decided to finish this painting, so that this state could be preserved forever. I hope it brings you back some memories from your own happy times, and takes you to a moment of bliss in the NOW.
It has been a rough process going through my long series of my childhood traumas and relive those moments again with all their pain. However, sometimes, when the clouds lifted, I felt a certain unknown kind of lightness, a certain joy of leaving all that behind and JUST ACCEPT IT. I have started this painting 7 years ago, and have painted it over 3 times, yet it still maintains some of the original forms and colours. It shows the inner process of the fight between fire and water in me (= my passion and my emotions), till I became aware of the clouds above me (= my behavioural patterns and thoughts that prevent me from living a happy and balanced life). As I processed those, they received a colour, a certain understanding opening up my feelings, as well as a sort of self-love that I didn’t know before, and this allowed to let in some of the love that has long been surrounding me. This is how the sun rays appeared on the painting, slowly starting to melt up all that ice, that was blocking me from Light and my soul from being free. (= see the bubble rolling on the right bottom? It is willing to fly!) Do you feel what I’m saying?
In the ancient times, drumming was mostly used for healing purposes. They’ve connected to Spirit and asked for help to heal the ills. About 5-6000 years ago the drummers were traditionally women, mostly wise women possessing various healing capacities. Their purpose was to communicate between the worlds (visible and invisible) and channel the healing to those in need. They worked in groups, knowing the power and strength of community and supporting each other firmly, but with compassion. Feminine leaders believed in horizontal systems and equality, the leader was one of the circle herself, and every single person of the community offered his/her strength for the good of the whole. This is why drumming in my life represents joy, focus and the connection to the divine.
BUDS OF THE POTENTIAL YOU
Containing the promise of a new life, buds are the strongest, most condensed part in a plant’s life. Reflecting the endless energy of children, buds also contain all the possibilities a plant can become. And with that breakthrough-energy of a fresh life, just as a sprout breaks through the soil to reach nurturing sunlight, buds remain the eternal symbol of fertility and blossoming.
They also pop the question to us – how fast are we opening up towards others, is that opening sudden, or do we contemplate much before a definite decision of trust. Also, do we prefer giving things a fair amount of time, opening up small by small, until we dare to show our true selves to another?
Have you thought about that beautiful and pure energy that a new life brings into this world? The fresh scent of flowers, angelic innocence and pure love growing into another mystery of life. Are we predestined somehow, or is the power of our free will stronger than anything in this physical reality? The answer is already there – hidden: where life starts, isn’t there the most clarity ever? Maybe an embryo in unity with mother and Universe, being just a pure drop of starlight, can embrace the essence of it all way better, than us, humans, before the veil of our limited existence – the way we often perceive it – falls upon our eyes.
Inherited most of our talents and limitations from our ancestors, our hearts are often not taught what is necessary for us to trust our own capabilities, see our own light. Often, our minds are not being able to capture the reality of our unlimited possibilities, and our mighty power of manifestation. Do you believe in yourself? Has your greatest work already manifested in your life yet? Do you see your potential?
The key to this painting is looking at it from two sides. One side reveals the mountains in the background, and the other hides them, as if a thick fog had been fallen down on them. Often, looking at things from the other person’s perspective is the key of seeing those happenings for what they truly are. Watching them from another angle might reveal what lies in the background and show us a wider understanding about the whole picture.
If you meditate regularly, you probably know the feeling of a deep, complete wholeness – a content happiness and a feeling that everything is good the way it is. Those moments, you are connected with the purest Source of energy of the Universe, the One that is there for all of us who pursue any spiritual practice or any form of art in order to reach out to it. Often depicted just as pure white light, and so difficult to describe the richness, the abundance it brings to our lives without experiencing it. This Source contains all the existing qualities of this world, and I dare say – of higher realms, which makes it possible for us to find back the pure qualities of masculine and feminine, and all other aspects and archetypes that we need in this life. ( – If you wonder what those are, you can learn more about them on one of my courses, called P(i)eace of Mind).